Convo with Chelsea

softbalchick181: hey
cjstar09: reda my profiel
softbalchick181: y did block tylor
cjstar09: read my profile
softbalchick181: i am tryin
softbalchick181: y did u block tylor
cjstar09: i dont wana talk to him cuz he is mena to me
cjstar09: y doe he care?
softbalchick181: yeah
softbalchick181: he keeps askin me if u r on
softbalchick181: k
softbalchick181:  i read it
softbalchick181: i like it
cjstar09: well i am the ugly one and everone is the perfect one so read t again
softbalchick181: Chelsea u r not ugly
softbalchick181: and i get it
cjstar09: u hvae no idea tyhen i am cryin right now
cjstar09: ??????????????

softbalchick181: yeah well so am i
cjstar09: ur wat?
softbalchick181: cry what r u doin
softbalchick181: crying
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softbalchick181: chelsea
softbalchick181: talk to me
softbalchick181: y r u crying
softbalchick181: is it because of what u look like
cjstar09: cuz
cjstar09: i am sick of things
cjstar09: and no one understands
softbalchick181: try me
softbalchick181: spill ur guts
softbalchick181: and i will spill mine
softbalchick181: and don't lie even if u r mad at me
cjstar09: i dunno wat to say cuz i dont kno how to put how i feel
softbalchick181: it will help
softbalchick181: yeah
softbalchick181: i know
softbalchick181: try
softbalchick181: it helps
cjstar09: umm well let e tell u wat ahgappened
cjstar09: k well u kno how i ahave my solo?
cjstar09: well i performed it saturday and everyone was telin em ai did a good job a dthat got me all pumpped up
softbalchick181: k
cjstar09: so i watched my self today at dnace on the camera todya
softbalchick181: k
softbalchick181: i think i know
softbalchick181: what happened
cjstar09: and i sucked poo and i cant believ pepeol lied to me it was awful
cjstar09: and i am failin in school
softbalchick181: k
softbalchick181: well
cjstar09: and i cant compete wit april and jrystla and kristen brooke
softbalchick181: at b ball games people used to tell me i did good when i really sucked and then i would see my self on camroa and feel terebal
softbalchick181: and i can't compete with u
softbalchick181: or krystle
softbalchick181: or brook
softbalchick181: and
softbalchick181: i never look good
softbalchick181: and i can' take a good pic
cjstar09: wateva u r pretty
softbalchick181: and it drives me nuts
softbalchick181: and i suck at track
cjstar09: and u ahve good grades and  abf and a good life
softbalchick181: and my grandmother like can't remeber me and my grandfather dos not belive anything is wrong
softbalchick181: and i get stuck baby sittin her
cjstar09: tahtsn nothin my gma and gpa yell at eme for no reason or a stupid lil thing an dthen they wonder y i cry all te  time
softbalchick181: and by the time i am 20my parents will be lik3 67 and they will like die before i ever get married
softbalchick181: and
cjstar09: well at leats u live wit urmom and dad
softbalchick181: i can never figure out the freekin home work the only reason i pass is because my grandfather was a math teacher and he helps me
softbalchick181: yeah
softbalchick181: well
cjstar09: when my gparents pass away i have to live wit my aunt
softbalchick181: every day i go to school
softbalchick181: and people make fun of them cuz they r old
softbalchick181: and i hate it
softbalchick181: when they do that
softbalchick181: cuz
softbalchick181: i love them
softbalchick181: even if they are old
softbalchick181: and i can't stand fuckin
softbalchick181: people
cjstar09: i dont makefun of them
cjstar09: who does?>
cjstar09: who?
softbalchick181: who can't deal wit there own problems
softbalchick181: so they get on mine
softbalchick181: jason blackwell, kyle mins, kurt basicley everyone at my table
cjstar09: well look at them they got nothin
softbalchick181: yeah
softbalchick181: i know
softbalchick181: but i still hate it
softbalchick181: chelsea
softbalchick181: u don't think u r fat do u?
cjstar09: yea
softbalchick181: k well i know it dosen't help but u r not i wish i looked like u
cjstar09: wateva i am white as white can get i am short and fat and cant dress mydelf
softbalchick181: hello
softbalchick181: have u ever looked at my skin
softbalchick181: and i am fatter then u
cjstar09: watever
softbalchick181: we need to wokr on are body image
softbalchick181: y do u act all happy at school when that is not what u r really like
cjstar09: cuz i dont wnat people to think well i dunno
softbalchick181: k well u don't have to act happy if u r not happy
softbalchick181: u could be sereous
softbalchick181: and people would still like u
cjstar09: well i dont want peopel to be liek wats wrong wit chelsea and crao like tahts
softbalchick181: yeah i know
softbalchick181: at least somone would wonder
cjstar09: well they need to wonderin the other direction
softbalchick181: yeah i know
softbalchick181: but.. i don't know
softbalchick181: i just hate the whold body image thing
softbalchick181: cuz i feel the same way
softbalchick181: i can's stand the way i look
softbalchick181: or i think i look good
softbalchick181: but then i c a pic
softbalchick181: and i want to rip it up
cjstar09: pivtires mean nothin
softbalchick181: oh well
cjstar09: my pics suck too
softbalchick181: i love the ones u took with kristin
cjstar09: well those were ok cuz yea but most of them suck
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cjstar09: wat doe sthat mean?
softbalchick181: k
softbalchick181: what does what mean
cjstar09: nvm
softbalchick181: do u feel anybetter?
cjstar09: no
softbalchick181: u sure
softbalchick181: do u feel any worse
cjstar09: i am positive i still wana do somethin drstic
softbalchick181: whoa hold on
softbalchick181: like what
cjstar09: drastic
softbalchick181: don't get belimic or anorexic on me and that is not a joke
softbalchick181: don't slit ur rists
softbalchick181: or suicide
softbalchick181: or anything dumb
softbalchick181: what r u thinkin
cjstar09: i dunno
softbalchick181: well think real real hard before u do anything
cjstar09: peircin my bellybutton
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: that is ur solution
softbalchick181: well
softbalchick181: it could be worse
softbalchick181: i think it would hert
cjstar09: well thats teh pint
softbalchick181: what for it to hert
cjstar09: yea for it to hurt
softbalchick181: man
softbalchick181: i don't think that is such a good idea
softbalchick181: k well i am goin to go to bed
softbalchick181: bye
cjstar09: toodles