Hidden Past

Its funny really, Kristi your my closest friend at school, and I never tried to keep secrets from you. Howere when I was out riding today i relized we don't really know each other that well. I don't think I know every thing about your past and you certenly don't know much about mine. I honostly wasn't trying to keep any of these from you It just kinda stayed locked away. I'm I confusing you yet? I am? good thats what i was hoping for. I'm not going to tell you anything right now. Why? Because I'm trying to add drama cuz its really not that introsting. (i'm to lazy to do it)

Words to song

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Heart Ach, Church Gatherings and Mysterouse Phone calls

Well, introsting happenins going on right now, Kristi apparntly likes a guy and apparntley is the biggest ass in the world because he can't see how great she is and he dosn't even have the courage to hook up with this other girl himself. I don't even know who he is or who the other girl is so i feel a bit odd. I feel bad for Mom cuz she really wanted me and Dad to go to this curch put put thing that we really DIDN"T want to go to but we did for her. Were there and we played and we pretened to be all happy happy and tehy the second part of it was ice cream or something i don't know exactially but it was really hot in the building and my dad needed to get out of it and mom thought he was leaving so she got all mad at us and yelled and I'm just happy were leaving, but I think she cired and i feel really bad about that. My cousin is comin today and i'm not lookin foward to that but it can't be avoided I suppose my grandfather is look foward to it so I guess so am I. I was really mad at Kristi Friday and I don't think she knew wich is probably good. She decided to annoucne to every one that she was Anorexic for a week during lunch, I don't care that she did it durning lunch but she goes "It was kinda fun" I know she is just trying to make it sound like nothing so i wouldn't get mad at her wich i think she thought i would do. Well I'm a bit dissapointed that she broke are "Never have engough will power" deal I understand why she did it It just pisses me off cuz all of a sudden I know like 5 people with the disorder and i feel responsible for every singel one. But that is not why i was mad. We were sittin next to Elise who is still having the problem and Krsiti goes "You knwo if u eat paper you stop eating" OMG i'm thinkin is she trying to give her ideas and befroe i know it i feel like there sharing tips on not eating. Now honsotly I'm not going to stop being there friends  but I really wish Krsiti had told me the truth earlier when I kept askin her about it. She Lied, and now I don't even know what the deal is with this guy she's talkin about. And it really sucks all the way around.

awesome song

Woohoo
Woohoo

Debbie just hit the wall
she never had it all
one Prozac a day
husbands a CPA
her dreams went out the door
when she turned twenty four
only been with one man
what happen to her plan?

She was gonna be an actress
she was gonna be a star
she was gonna shake her ass
on the hood of white snake’s car
her yellow SUV is now the enemy
looks at her average life
and nothing has been alright

Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she’s uncool
but she still preoccupies
with 19, 19, 1985

Woohoo
(1985)
Woohoo

She’s seen all the classics
she knows every line
Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink
even Saint Elmo’s Fire
she rocked out to wham
not a big Limp Biscuit fan
thought she’d get a hand
on a member of Duran Duran

Where’s the mini-skirt made of snake skin
and who’s the other guy singing in Van Halen
when did reality become T.V.
what ever happen to sitcoms, game shows
(on the radio was)

Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she’s uncool
but she still preoccupies
with 19, 19, 1985

Woohoo

She hates time make it stop
when did Motley Crew become classic rock?
And when did Ozzy become an actor?
Please make this stop
Stop!
And bring back

Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she’s uncool
but she still preoccupies
with 1985

Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she’s uncool
but she still preoccupies
with 19, 19, 1985

My oh my

So Kristi thinks I'm not funny? I'll give her funny TAKE THIS KRISTI!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA, and I did more then laugh (not much but hey i was tired) My body decided it didn't want to move so I just decided not to. I was hyper in Science were was Kristi then HUH? Well Honostly if she expects me to function normally she needs to get them to play Rock on the loud speekers, sereously I shut down when I am away from my toons and that particuar morning MTV just happend to not be playing anything good. Like right now but oh well, I will do  my best not to dissapoint u tomarow!

First days

Today was first day, boring, exticting, disapointing. I don't know anymore. Krsiti said she feels like every one is turning her back on her. I hope I can be of more asstance, assienged seats, druggies, bullies, no hope. I'm just glad to know that these depressing feelings are normal, i suppose, all gone, confusing. I acted a bit oddley today I think i freeked krsiti out. I should write a poem, far, too, lazy!

Nervose Habbits, First days, Amazing Chairs, and other things that I come accrose in life

Well I'm here with nothing to comfort my nerves, just sitting in my chair. It is actually a pretty introsting chair. It's blue with plastic handels, and a switch to make it go up and down. It is the Greatest chair, all young stools look up to it, other chairs strive to be like it, but no I have the Aultra Amazing Chair, Its the coolest chair out there! So cool the bed even wants to date it!

See this is what happens when i get nervose, I make up personalites for all my furiture. I have a entire Freekin Soap Opra here! My chair is of corse the star, just look at it! The bed is a wana be cheerleader, who likes the chair. The chair likes the Bookcase who is a bad girl goth who likes the lap, who is a Science Geek!

Toon in next time to see what happens when Chair gets in to a life threatin accident making him relize who he is closest to, Bed? or Perhaps, Bookcase? Watch the drama unfold!

Chronic Future

I belive I finally know why I like that song I mentiond early. The words are very true and the song writer dosn't like there parents! and the F word is no in it just sounds like that

"Time And Time Again"

Inspiring, shining, rising
And when you're in my way
I'm not dividing me from you cause we're working together
Perfect in its splendor like the currents of the weather
The splinter in my center hindering all of my pleasure
Is me manifested as you in this endeavor
Once responsibility is taken I can render
Experience to be however I want to remember

Time and time again we fall in to the depths of who we are
But you can't keep running away from what you're trying to find

Put yourself through the scariest of scenarios
Enter experiences you normally wouldn't dare to go
It's all for the character and the aroogant afterglow
Of knowing it's appearance according to your patterns of growth
And what your parents handed down to you to handle
Make sure you carry torches when their puttin out your candles
Prediction can be unkind but unwind them still
Don't erase the part of you that's responsible for your will

Time and time again we fall into the depths of who we are
But you can't keep running away from what wou're trying to find

Well I've seen you and those things you do
And the way you hide that shadow can't be good for you
Your dark defines your light

There's some utterly damaged particles to deal with
And if I stutter I'm sorry but it's hard to feel swift
When stuck in my stomach is a cannon ball anchor to life
I've been pushing it down pretending it doesn't exist
Well this is what happens when you're pissed about being pissed
You dig yourself so deep you resist just to resist
And there's no way to get back experiences you missed
So start right now today and risk furiousness for bliss

Time and time again we fall into the depths of who we are
But you can't keep running away from what you're trying to find

I hate having to come up with fun creative subject lines, just to amuse others.

I shall die from boredem, die die die, i shall die from animal crackers, i swar the lion is lookin at me funny, HEY BACK OFF U LION! I swar you can only trust the monkies thats right good monkey.  1 more day of toutore 1 more lunch with the "Ansestors" I get to watch the hot boys swim tomarow HEHEHEEHE THe olympics are here! well not tecknicly they are in Athens Greese, wich i hear is a dirty city but I still think it be fun to be there. I get to see Aneta in them! Its so cool to know someone in the Olymipics *even if she probably won't win* Today my outfit consited of no black, aren't u all just so proud of me. Also i think i kinda figured out the difference between my moms work number and the Riters frozen custrard flavord hot line *454-8733* I still remember that after all this time. I belive this means i eat way to much ice cream! I'm going to die die die of boredem. bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bord bored bored. Krsiti you need to write in ur blog there has to be SOMETHING going on in that head of yours!

CATALOPE SONG!

WOWOWOWOWWO i got cantelope!!!!

The dumbist thing ever said!

I am sticking by my story of not likeing eater canidit for president. I like to belive I'm not a part of any politicel party and can rise above normal bias. I don't belive in war or killing people if there is any othe possible solution, I don't know if Bush did the right thing in attacking Irac and Afganistan, nor will I ever. I don't belive in killing anyone anytime for any reason. (arn't i the eturnal optamist) I do belive however there are somethings worth fighting for. Tonight for some unimagenable reason I paused at a news station as they were playing an excerpt of one of John Kerry's speches. Untill now I never really had an opion of the democration nomination for president, now I belive him to be the most heartless, bilnd, edeodic, or just plane dumb person they could have chosen. I can only rember a small portion of the excerpt, and not wanting to let my own personal opion get in the way I will only post what i know and it reads as fallows. ". . . american solders and dieing for the biggest nothing in history. . . " Thats the biggest piece of bullshit I have ever heard. I'm not fond of revenge or getting back at someone but I do belive they are fighting for something far more important then a "nothing." Those solders Leave there loved ones to protecte them, to keep them safe, to make sure we don't have to live in fear. Thoes solderse, fight to make the sacrafice of all those people in the World Trade Center worth while, so they know they didn't die for us just to sit back and watch this violence continue, They fight for all thoes people in Afgaistan who need our help, They fight so John Kerry can go out and say that peoples family, friend's, son's, daoughter's, father's, mother's are dieing for NOTHING. I don't belive there dieing for nothing they are doing it to protect me.

I don't like war, I hate it to be truthfull. I don't want it, I don't want revenge, but if we have to do it, i'm sure as hell not going to support someone who makes it sound like solders have no reason for fighting.

introsting qote

"People come and go. That's a fact of life." Her green eyes were affectionate as they peered at Bobby. "Sometimes, if you're lucky enough, they come back."

 

FIRE!

My Kitchen is on Fire! well sort of, my mom isn't the best cook but i don't think I give her enough credit but u know the smoke dectors are going off all over the place it is oter cahos I tell ya. She's taking some strange Steroid thing for her foot or what ever, and its making her emotions go crazy. She practicly cried a min ageo, i mean shure dinner is burnt and the kitchin is full of smoke but i don't see anything to cry about. I'm very confused about how to spell quite qute quet. I get them mixed up quet a lot. (I hope thats right) I'm watching these really awesome Amine Previews. Lea's friend ran away last night but they found her. I can only imagen what she is going threw i think her boy friend hits her and does drugs. Lea certenly knows how to pick friends though she would never do something like that. ( i hope) God why is the wrold so messed up. U know iw as going to try and make this happy but now im just depressing my self my freekin dad just walked up behind me trying to read this. He needs to get his own life!

Frustrating Convo's With Kristi!

softbalchick181: hell no

Kristi Jo 09: I knew that was commg, are you squeaky clean?

softbalchick181: he he he yes

Kristi Jo 09: I got my school styff today....Are u workin on the next chappie, or doe u want me to or what?

softbalchick181: lets both work on it but first

softbalchick181: I must. . .

softbalchick181: PAINT MY TOE NAILS!

softbalchick181: MUWAHHAHAHAH

Kristi Jo 09: god ur dumb, sorry Im not happy, I forgot to take my happy pills

softbalchick181: lol

Kristi Jo 09: Im reregestrating to why ville

softbalchick181: well u c i have them painted

softbalchick181: and Elise made fun of them

softbalchick181: so im goign to repaint them

softbalchick181: but

softbalchick181: i fear the worst is appon us

softbalchick181: I CAN"T FIND THE NAIL POLISH REMOVIER

softbalchick181: lol i stil have ur water bottle

softbalchick181: it is right in front of me

Kristi Jo 09: I was gonna ask for it but I forgot lol

Kristi Jo 09: I wanted it today, but did I have it? NO1 man, forget abiout ur toenail. . . wear tennis shoes tomorrow

softbalchick181: brb (must find polish removier)

softbalchick181: man

softbalchick181: crap im going to have to wake up my mom

Kristi Jo 09: its not worth it

Kristi Jo 09: gust forget about it retard

softbalchick181: SUCCESS

softbalchick181: my mommy was hinding it on her dressor

softbalchick181: I HAVE SUCCEDED

softbalchick181: but wait!

softbalchick181: what is this

softbalchick181: WERE OUT OF COTTEN SWABS!!

Kristi Jo 09: use the ear cleaners w/e those are called

Kristi Jo 09: ummm ummm damn what are they????

Kristi Jo 09: Q-TIPS!!!!!!!!

softbalchick181: lol

softbalchick181: crap

Kristi Jo 09: what>

softbalchick181: i acidentley got ride of the things i need for favorites

Kristi Jo 09: What?????

softbalchick181: i don't know what it is just i have to do this thi ng wit my computer and sometimes i click on the wong thing

Kristi Jo 09: OMG! did I tell you?!?!? My mom thinks I have an ulser, w/e the hell that is.

softbalchick181: it is were u have this groth in ur stumic were ur insides like come out

softbalchick181: but i dobt that

softbalchick181: doubt

softbalchick181: *

softbalchick181: crap i just totly blew up on kyle

Kristi Jo 09: haha I knoe, she said cuse like I get sick everytime I eat and wen I get really stressed out

Kristi Jo 09: aww I felt soe bad for him cause I say "Im soe sorry ur moving" he goes "w.e I dont wanna talk about it."

softbalchick181: well it is possilbe but ive never heard of a kid gettin a stuimic alser

Kristi Jo 09: I ahve but i never knew what an ulser was

softbalchick181: softbalchick181: sup?

Cheese is good31: nm

softbalchick181: cool cool

softbalchick181: so would u like to tell me any more information

Cheese is good31: no

softbalchick181: i c

softbalchick181: u know this dosn't please me

Cheese is good31: you'll get over it

softbalchick181: chil

softbalchick181: chill

softbalchick181: how do feel about it do u wnat to go back

Cheese is good31: ok i said i dont want to talk about it so change the subject or shut up

softbalchick181: im sry but HELL KYLE I"M FREEKIN NOT UNDERSTANND WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I"M SHUT UP NOW

GOOD BYE

Cheese is good31: what ever

Cheese is good31: l8er

Cheese is good31 signed off at 10:14:21 PM.

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softbalchick181: softbalchick181: sup?

Cheese is good31: nm

softbalchick181: cool cool

softbalchick181: so would u like to tell me any more information

Cheese is good31: no

softbalchick181: i c

softbalchick181: u know this dosn't please me

Cheese is good31: you'll get over it

softbalchick181: chil

softbalchick181: chill

softbalchick181: how do feel about it do u wnat to go back

Cheese is good31: ok i said i dont want to talk about it so change the subject or shut up

softbalchick181: im sry but HELL KYLE I"M FREEKIN NOT UNDERSTANND WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I"M SHUT UP NOW

GOOD BYE

Cheese is good31: what ever

Cheese is good31: l8er

Cheese is good31 signed off at 10:14:21 PM.

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Kristi Jo 09: oh. . . a kid. . . Kelsy um sinning had one

softbalchick181: softbalchick181: sup?

Cheese is good31: nm

softbalchick181: cool cool

softbalchick181: so would u like to tell me any more information

Cheese is good31: no

softbalchick181: i c

softbalchick181: u know this dosn't please me

Cheese is good31: you'll get over it

softbalchick181: chil

softbalchick181: chill

softbalchick181: how do feel about it do u wnat to go back

Cheese is good31: ok i said i dont want to talk about it so change the subject or shut up

softbalchick181: im sry but HELL KYLE I"M FREEKIN NOT UNDERSTANND WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I"M SHUT UP NOW

GOOD BYE

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softbalchick181:

Cheese is good31: nm

softbalchick181: cool cool

softbalchick181: so would u like to tell me any more information

Cheese is good31: no

softbalchick181: i c

softbalchick181: u know this dosn't please me

Cheese is good31: you'll get over it

softbalchick181: chil

softbalchick181: chill

softbalchick181: how do feel about it do u wnat to go back

Cheese is good31: ok i said i dont want to talk about it so change the subject or shut up

softbalchick181: im sry but HELL KYLE I"M FREEKIN NOT UNDERSTANND WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I"M SHUT UP NOW

GOOD BYE

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softbalchick181: softbalchick181: so would u like to tell me any more information

Cheese is good31: no

softbalchick181: i c

softbalchick181: u know this dosn't please me

Cheese is good31: you'll get over it

softbalchick181: chil

softbalchick181: chill

softbalchick181: how do feel about it do u wnat to go back

Cheese is good31: ok i said i dont want to talk about it so change the subject or shut up

softbalchick181: im sry but HELL KYLE I"M FREEKIN NOT UNDERSTANND WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I"M SHUT UP NOW

GOOD BYE

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softbalchick181: Cheese is good31: you'll get over it

softbalchick181: chil

softbalchick181: chill

softbalchick181: how do feel about it do u wnat to go back

Cheese is good31: ok i said i dont want to talk about it so change the subject or shut up

softbalchick181: im sry but HELL KYLE I"M FREEKIN NOT UNDERSTANND WHAT IS GOING ON BUT I"M SHUT UP NOW

GOOD BYE

Kristi Jo 09: I klnoe same thing here but I dropped it

Kristi Jo 09: His parents are dumb

softbalchick181: i know i just

softbalchick181: HAAAAAAAa

softbalchick181: his stly of tlying has takin over!!!

Kristi Jo 09: hahah CHANGE IT!

softbalchick181: i just want to know how he feels about it

Kristi Jo 09: Is he on?

softbalchick181: he was intel i talked 2 him

Kristi Jo 09: Im gonna try

Kristi Jo 09: ........try being the key word

softbalchick181: try what

softbalchick181: oh and why the hell did u give Joey my number

Kristi Jo 09: Ummm. . . no clue.

softbalchick181: great

softbalchick181: u do know he called and aksed me out today

Kristi Jo 09: get over it micah has axsked me out 2 times in the past two days, Im dealing with it.

softbalchick181: oh and derek came in to day and wouldn't even look at me u certenley know how to creaty problems

softbalchick181: why r u so crabby

Kristi Jo 09: I TOLD YOU! I didnt take my happy pills!!!

softbalchick181: brb'

Kristi Jo 09: Kristi Jo 09: Hey, I'm really sorry your not going to Mcs.

Cheese is good31: weve been through this aleready

Kristi Jo 09: Well Its gonna totally suck at maple crest without having a little buddy to tease about his bald spott

Cheese is good31: lol

softbalchick181: wait he is on!

Kristi Jo 09: yea

softbalchick181: omg he blocked me

Kristi Jo 09: HAHAHAHAHA!

softbalchick181: SHUT UP

softbalchick181: i am not in the mood to deal with ur freekin attitued

Kristi Jo 09: oh but guess what?

softbalchick181: what

Kristi Jo 09: Im really pissed thou cause my mom rented this house in fl, and I soe dount wanna goe. . . All her friends are going and I cant bring neone and on top of that we were suppose to goe to fCalifornia

softbalchick181: when are u going to California

Kristi Jo 09: well we WERE gonna goe this sb but were going to florida AGAIN! God im soe sick of it there! ive been there every year since I was in 2nd grade

softbalchick181: u wana know what i think

Kristi Jo 09: hmm?

Kristi Jo 09: what does Virginia have to think about this

softbalchick181: I think that i am sick of u telling me to get over things I am also thinkin that when i get done writing this u won't be my firend and i hope u relize im just venting i think that i really pissed that u told derek i love him becase he was one of the most introsting people i know and u ruined that and he won't talk to me anymore I relize what he said to u was wrong but honostly I lost a friend and u only got called a few words and Micah I'm sory he keeps bother u but Joey i acutally have to see on a daly bassis and i don't want to hurt his feelings and I'm not lookin foward to spending another 8hrs with Elise tomaorw she does tend to get anoying and I'm thinking I'm losing one of my best friends who is going to a differn't school and i don't understand why he is angry upset and I can't to a fuckin thing and Frankly if goign to Flordia was the thing i mad about then i would have it good

softbalchick181: i needed to let that out

Kristi Jo 09: ummm doe u want me to come by tomorrow

softbalchick181: come by wear

Kristi Jo 09: the school?

softbalchick181: i would love it

Kristi Jo 09: can I stay for a while? or would I get in trouble

softbalchick181: Well we could just tell them ur also getting student Council Hourse

Kristi Jo 09: haha! Im not though,, and Im not gonna lie and hafta face it down the rest of the skool yr!

softbalchick181: good point maybe it is not a good idea

softbalchick181: lol

Not quit sure at the moment

aWell I'm listing to this song and try to figure out the meaning to it. Anyone know the answer? Also I can't figure out why lauch dosn't block out the F' word in this song but it does in others. Strange, I know. Also I'm having troble figureing out why I like this song. It's rap (i think) You see I'm starting to loose my touch, What will I do? I heard from Kristi (shes not dead but close to it) I'm over that kyle thing but i still don't know how I'm going to get home from school. *sigh* I'm bringing lots of cady to this thing tomarow *he he he* my my i am bored. The lunch from hell 2 was so freekin funny. My aunt never shut up and would just laugh and she never did find out why. Like 8 randome people came up and talked to use. Today at regastration we ran accross 4 lanes of traffic to get to McDonalds. so that is my exercise for the year. I'm going to stop being Virginia and start being Toast so Eugine GET READY!!! YE HAW (for all my cowboy friends)

Kyles Freekin Retard parents

I am so freekin mad right now I sware I'm going to kill somone. Why you ask? Because I got an E-mail from kyle that is why. It was a normal E-mail thanking me for his b-day present and how he is not coming to public school this year. YES HE IS NOT COMING TO SCHOOL! they can't just do that, he was my ride home on most days!he HATES his other school at least thats what he tells me they are such idiots I CAN"T STAND THEM they can't even afford it! This is the by FAR The dumbist decision they have ever mad. I really hope he Rebbils and dies his hair black or gets his ear pierced or something honostly he is 14 i think he is smart enough to know what school he wants to go to. OH and just a fact, 4 kids came in today transfuring from Kokomo Christin to our school today.

Lunch from Hell 2 THE AUNT IS BACK!!!

Kristi if i never see you again it is because i am dead. I am sory but i felt it my duity to go to lunch. I'm going to die at this. My Grandfather is mad at my Grandmother, My Grandmother is mad but she can't rember why. My Aunt is mad because she didn't cause it. My Mom is frustrated because she is going to have to play Gandi, I'm freekin lovin it cuz i will have meteral

Um. . . I don't really know. . .

assdfssdf Okay I guess there wasn't anything to worry about, I had a great time. I got to make a video with Patrick and Jimi and it was really fun. I kinda walked home with Patrick before my Grandfather picked us up. I have found out I have a fear of pulling out in traffic. (I wonder were this came from) and I havn't heard Hide or Tail of Kristi, wich frankly, is unacceptable! Well, I'm about to pass out from some stange medicen my mother is forcing me to take. I get this stange feeling when I'm sick, like i rember having it when i was younger and i like it. Kinda like the Christmas feeling.

Convo with Ridge

softbalchick181: hey
Ilovmymom83: hey
softbalchick181: anything new?
Ilovmymom83: yea... actually
Ilovmymom83: um...
softbalchick181: yes...
Ilovmymom83: my aunt won the lottery
softbalchick181: are you sereous?
Ilovmymom83: yup
softbalchick181: OMG THAT IS SO TOTLEY AWESOME!!!!
Ilovmymom83: yea
softbalchick181: how much did she win
softbalchick181: what school are u going to next year?
Ilovmymom83: she is moving and she told my dad if he came out and live near her then she would give him some...
Ilovmymom83: and she won... like 78 million
softbalchick181: naw ur joking
Ilovmymom83: and im goin with my dad
softbalchick181: u can't be sereous
Ilovmymom83: no seriously
softbalchick181: were are u moving
softbalchick181: omg that is so so so so so cool
Ilovmymom83: tuson, arizona
softbalchick181: wow
Ilovmymom83: 2,000 miles away
softbalchick181: thats hot
softbalchick181: yeah i know
softbalchick181: wow
softbalchick181: u have to be joking
Ilovmymom83: no really
Ilovmymom83: im serious
softbalchick181: were does ur aunt live right now
Ilovmymom83: sharpsville
softbalchick181: so like if i said i had a friend whos aunt won 78million people wouldn't say that it was a lie?
softbalchick181: cuz if i tell someone and i find out it is a lie i will SO kill u
Ilovmymom83: well its hard to believe but yea it wouldnt b a lie
softbalchick181: that is cool
softbalchick181: really really cool
softbalchick181: i bet ur gettin some awesome christmas persents this year
Ilovmymom83: yea, prolly but im not worried about that
softbalchick181: lol
Ilovmymom83: i just dont want to move so far away from my life
Ilovmymom83: u kno what i mean
softbalchick181: yeah but ull still have "im " right
softbalchick181: i thought u wanted to move
Ilovmymom83: i mean driving a four wheller up and and down a dirt path would b awesome but not without slusher u kno what i mean
Ilovmymom83: and yea but not that far
softbalchick181: yeah i would hate to move away but im sure ull make lots of new friends and just think of all the opratunities you will have there that u didn't have me
softbalchick181: and who knows maybe u won't have to walk so far to Wendys there
Ilovmymom83: "and just think of all the opratunities you will have there that u didn't have me" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??
softbalchick181: lol i ment here
softbalchick181: im reading and typing
softbalchick181: (not a good idea)
Ilovmymom83: yea...
softbalchick181: lol don't get so full of your self
Ilovmymom83: i wasnt what do u mean?
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: nm just a misunderstanding
Ilovmymom83: u kno u want me and my rich self
softbalchick181: so when are u moving
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: thats what i mean but not getting so full of your self
Ilovmymom83: im moving next week
softbalchick181: wow so soon
softbalchick181: is Vincent going wit u
Ilovmymom83: yea its cuz my dad dont me out od skewl
Ilovmymom83: and yes he is
softbalchick181: well at least ull have SOMEBODY there u know
softbalchick181: ur lucky u have siblings
Ilovmymom83: yea im excited
softbalchick181: i get so lonley
softbalchick181: *sigh*
softbalchick181: lol
Ilovmymom83: do u want a shoulder to cry on??:'(
Ilovmymom83: well to bad use ur own
Ilovmymom83: LOL
softbalchick181: hey, did I ask for your simpathy? NO
softbalchick181: and im not the one moving 4000mils away
softbalchick181: or 2 000
Ilovmymom83: did i ask for your, your, um... your uh.. self
Ilovmymom83: NO
Ilovmymom83: and im not moving... wait i am
Ilovmymom83: uh... huh
softbalchick181: i love the way u word things
Ilovmymom83: really?
softbalchick181: oh yes can't u tell
softbalchick181: *sarcasim*
Ilovmymom83: i try to make it sound like a reall conversation
softbalchick181:  OH UR ASKING FOR IT
softbalchick181: and how exactially do i make it sound?
Ilovmymom83: hey im rich so dont u mess with me!
Ilovmymom83: LOL j/k
softbalchick181: oh how the tides have turned
Ilovmymom83: hey man... i am still the same person... u act like im a rish snob or something... hey i do stuff for myself when i have a chofuer i wont let him open my door. when i wake up ill pick my own clothes... ill make my own breakfast
Ilovmymom83: rich*
softbalchick181: lol very funy i hope your joking
softbalchick181: crap my computer locked up
softbalchick181: it won't load anything
Ilovmymom83: if i was then i wouldnt b talkin to u... but i am, cuz if i was then i wouldnt b
softbalchick181: i c
softbalchick181: i think i understand
softbalchick181: wow so 78million Arizona
softbalchick181: your life is changing fast
softbalchick181: well maybe Slusher can come out to ur house sometime
Ilovmymom83: house?? house?? what r u talkin about... house...u make me laugh
Ilovmymom83: i aint gonna have a "house" ill have a monsion
softbalchick181: now whos acting like the rich snob
Ilovmymom83: mansion
softbalchick181: i don't belive that is spelled correctley
softbalchick181: ye
softbalchick181: s
softbalchick181: yes
Ilovmymom83: nobody is
softbalchick181: lol *if u say so*
Ilovmymom83: leave me alone im goin through a lot right now and i dont want ur crap
softbalchick181: im sry im just trying to help
Ilovmymom83: no ur trying to b mean
softbalchick181: trust me i would be saying a lot more if i wanted to be mean but i do feel somewhat bad about u moving
softbalchick181: i hate to say it but ill miss ya
Ilovmymom83: sure u will
softbalchick181: don't put ur self down so much
Ilovmymom83: im feel better now
softbalchick181: really? good
softbalchick181: look im sure u will have lots of fun
Ilovmymom83: because i just let myself go
softbalchick181: huh?
Ilovmymom83: i let it all out on someone else
softbalchick181: did u just send me an e-mail
Ilovmymom83: no
Ilovmymom83: i let it all out on somebody that i thought i knew
softbalchick181: who?
Ilovmymom83: i kinda let a few curse words out as well
Ilovmymom83: only 3 though
softbalchick181: who?
Ilovmymom83: well im not really sure
softbalchick181: okay. . . explane further
Ilovmymom83: at first i thought it was kelsey then brittany then it sounded like kristen and then they said it was kristen so in all i let it out an all of them
softbalchick181: whats the sn?
Ilovmymom83: all i said was, and quote"fuck u, i fuckin hate everybody so leave me the fuck alone"
Ilovmymom83: and they got off
softbalchick181: no im not trying to accuse u of anything was it Hawaiin girl or something like taht ?
Ilovmymom83: LOL yea
softbalchick181: it was Britney
softbalchick181: at least thats her sn
Ilovmymom83: i kno thats her s/n but they were all there
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: sounds like someone is having a sleepover
softbalchick181: mand i have to get up at 7 for that computer class thingey
Ilovmymom83: i mean it wasnt that bad was it, what i said i mean
softbalchick181: well it depends what sort of mood there in
Ilovmymom83: well i dont really care about them, kelsey is just a nuetral, im not really friends with brittany, and i hate kristens guts
Ilovmymom83: i want to rip off her head and piss down her neck
Ilovmymom83: kristen i mean
softbalchick181: introsting visual. . . although hate is really really strong
Ilovmymom83: yea well i hate her with a passion
Ilovmymom83: and nothin ne body says or does will make me change my mind
softbalchick181: im not trying to changer ur mind
Ilovmymom83: ok good
Ilovmymom83: becasue its worthless, to try
softbalchick181: well I can't change it but U can
softbalchick181: but im to tired to do that now
Ilovmymom83: what?
Ilovmymom83: it doesnt matter ne way, u could tell me she is a angel from heaven, and i wouldnt believe u because angels dont lie deciet and piss peopel off till the point of insanity
Ilovmymom83: she makes me so mad to even think about her..
softbalchick181: HELL NO shes is not an angel
Ilovmymom83: ehhhhhhhhhhhh
softbalchick181: i am never going to tell u that
Ilovmymom83: y not
softbalchick181: from what u tell me seh soudns like a jerk (for lack of better word)
Ilovmymom83: what did she do? to u that was sooo bad..
softbalchick181: im not going to go there nothing to me personly but no one she be so mean
softbalchick181: shes just such a snob
Ilovmymom83: i got another word u could use in place of the word jerk
softbalchick181: yes but im not going to curse
Ilovmymom83: or phrase i should say...
Ilovmymom83: actually um... how about 2 phrases
Ilovmymom83: want to hear them??
softbalchick181: I belive I can express my self just fine with out resorting to curses
Ilovmymom83: #1 Cum guzzling gutter whore...
softbalchick181: although i have nothing agenst them
softbalchick181: infact i told J.D sheltion to go fuck him self last year
softbalchick181: arn't u proud
Ilovmymom83: #2 Left over cum bubble from a lesbian finger fuck
softbalchick181: i c
softbalchick181: very creative
Ilovmymom83: no im not proud... at heart i dont like to curse
softbalchick181: well ur sure don't come of that way
Ilovmymom83: just he thought of her drives me over the edge
softbalchick181: you*
Ilovmymom83: the*
Ilovmymom83: i mean really i dont like to curse, its bad and itry not to, but whose got that kind of self control
softbalchick181: well if you don't like to curse it shouldn't matter you are smart enough to find other means of gettin accross how you feel
softbalchick181: and i undersand
softbalchick181: i don't like to curse but i do
Ilovmymom83: well fine then we will stick to #1 phrase, no cuss words
Ilovmymom83: LOL
softbalchick181: although that incidnet was the only time ive ever cursed at someone
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: now u making me proud
Ilovmymom83: cum guzzling gutter whore it is
Ilovmymom83: LOL
softbalchick181: yes yes i know what it is
Ilovmymom83: LOL but i like to see it
softbalchick181: w/e
Ilovmymom83: i mean really what did i do to her that was sooo bad
softbalchick181: im not defending her
Ilovmymom83: no honest if i was so wrong in being nice to her and doin her favors, and helping her if she wanted my help, keeoing her secrets that she wanted kept, and defending her evey second someone said or did something bad towards her then let me kno
softbalchick181: look i know she is not a nice person but u weret wrong u were just being nice
Ilovmymom83: i mean seriously
softbalchick181: and she was a jerk
Ilovmymom83: ok well i got to go ok bye
Ilovmymom83 signed off at 10:58:55 PM.

Grandparents

Well I promased my Grandfather I would look at this magazeen before I bought a backpack even though i know the one i want. So he called wanting to come over and then he called saying my grandmother wanted to come. She is so out of it right now at lucnch we were talking about some old lady at church who had problems walking up the stars. This lady is like 75years old and what does my grandmother say? "is she pregnant" we all just looked at her and said "no, no i don't think so" and then my grandfather was talking about how he hoped to be back tomarow by 3:30 so he could pick me up from some computer class.(which by the way he was NOT supposed to know about so i could walk home) and my grandmother askes what are u doing. so he tells her what his plans for that day are and she freeks sayin "NOW I KNOW I WOULD HAVE REMEMBERD THAT! u just didn't tell me" which is not true but whatever so we go on and then we talk about "ways of me getting home tomrow" and she askes the same question and my grandfather says "don't worry about it" she ONCE AGAIN freeks and just gos ranting on about how we should just put he in a home if we dn't like her.