Squirrels so live in nests

Gurr... I SAID COMIC SANS DARN U! Well well I have successifully recived coments from the peoples who read this piece of crapola. OH I MEAN WONDERFUL LITATURE! Also i did some checking up and squirrels do live in nests, if they can't find a good tree. I have so much candy, I don't really want all of it, its just fun to look at. The wrappers are so pretty.... Anyhoo a tree came down in our yard yesterday, told you it was windy, (my g-father is rather pleased seeing as he wanted my dad to take it down when it first died.) Though it is just laying there, growing into the ground, roughting, because the tree guys said that the trucks would kill our yard if they came and got it now. I asked Dad if we could just let it grown into our yard to provid houseing for all the squirrels, he didn't think that was the best idea *somehing about a smell* Now I must leave you and protect my candy for the evil drangon know as MOTHER!! *theme music plays.*

What would a normal person do?

I am feeling lack of excitment and ethuseasim, otherwise known as boredem. No one will talk to me, I can't find anything introsting to read, or do for that matter, what do normal people do when they get bored? Kristi would do something illegal, Jon would draw, Jimi would play the gutair, Mom would sleep, Lea would clean, Kacey would pray that Ryan would call..... but what do I do when I'm bored? I really don't know...this is infact a rather sad dismel fact, there are things I SHOULD be doing such as laundry or the story, or even homework for that matter though I don't know why. You should have seen the trees from my window today, there so tall and when the wind blows its amazing they don't fall over. Also does anyone know if squirrels live in nests?

Superstar

My bro is on tv. channel 47 for a baby story isn't that special its really grose i don't like watching the birthing process of my sister in law.

How long has it been?

*clears throught* LADIES AND GENTELMEN! IF I CAN HAVE YOUR ATTENCHION PLEASE *everyone gets very quite* In 1918 women gaind their rights to vote, the number one movie was What Becomes Of The Children? *ever heard of it?*   the charicter Sherlock Homles was still alive *I think* and the Boston Redsocks won the World Series (though its realyl only America). In the year 2004 the political election rages, Martha stewart is in jail, therefore can not vote, I have not the foggiest notion what the number one movie is, watched the new eclips on the same day the Boston played in the World Series. Oh did i metion they won? THE BOSTON RED SOCKS WON THE WORLD SERIES IN 4 DAYS!!! Kinda cool don't ya think? Luara is naming her dog "Boston" in horor of them. I wish I had something to name. *eyes the ball poin pen* "I SAHLL CALL YOU BOSTON"

P.S I have been so incredible bored the past hr or whatever, someone needs to get on 

My gloriouse October 28

Glad to see my font is back arn't you? October 28th began no earlier then it usually does, 12.a.m sharp, God certenly is punctual. My October 28th began at 6:30 however when my oh-so-lovley mother woke me up. Then it began again after she came in 5mins later just to find out I was still asleep. I spent a full 5mins on my hair and went down stares for a cereal bar. No time to eat actually cerel with milk. After all isn't rushing around the American Way? Mrs. Fruth decided to schudel a Student Council meeting for Oct. 28th. I had Thriller schudeled for Oct. 28. I had pizza with the pricipal on Oct. 28th and the dance. So many things to do, with just has much time as we allways have. Turns out I didn't have to worry about the student council meeting because Mrs. Fruth wouldn't let me in with my makeup on. First period goes by, along with the first performance of Thriller, *I messed up but thats life* Second period comes and goes along with our second performance of Thriller *ha, only a little off beat* Third comes moseling along, and gone is our final performance. Thats it, no more Thriller for Oct. 28th. I lost a lot inbetween 6:30 and Third period, a neckless, my awards, and some of my skin came off when i took the make up off, Oh and i lost Kristi, luckley she found a responsible adult to help her. I mad it to the last 5mins of Health, still had some makeup on my face, I was one necklas short and had no awards from the morning but I was able to beg and force Jon into calling his mom and asking if he could go to the dance. The bell rings and Health for Oct. 28th is over with *Kristi never showed up* Off to the marry world of English *the sub was "One of the stupidest, dippest subs I'v ever had" -Mrs. Jonson* I found my Book, so I was down a necklas, up a book. Not a bad trade. Went to Science where Luara and I planed a trip to Venice Itali to look for the Lion statues and to feed the pigons we read about, to Frace to look for French Toast, and for French Fries, To England to see the guards and the crown jewls, to Japan to climb Mt.Fugi and to see the Cherry Blossem Trees (i hear the beatuiful) I really enjoyed it, my entire life plan, was made durning Science class on Oct. 28th. Social Studies was very agravating as Mrs. Stofuz showed just how superfical she turley is, then i began contemplating how larg the stick that was stuk up her butt was. (still working on that one) It's off to Pizza with the Principal! *ugg i never want to see pizza again* We acomplised absolutley nothing, life though is like a really big pizza, it goes quickley, sometimes you have to get ride of the things in it you don't like, and it takes a while before you get it. *Let me tell you that certanly impressed Mr.Shook* Come Algebra I find out Kelly is continuing her quest to stalk me, by getting a pass to decorate for the dance, and a new life mad his way into the earth on Oct.28th *Skinner had her baby* Jons mom okay'd it and he can go to the dance. This certenly brightens my spirts. Spend the next hr. decorating for it (all in vain because we had no idea what we were doing) Paid Jon's way into getting into the dance, Jimi did the empossible by being the first white boy to dance the Harlem Hussel, I acomplised the impossible by fitting 5 people on a small bench for the picture that I paid for, but then before I knew it Derek had paid for copies for all of us. I think he really had fun, he actually danced, maybe he is starting to enjoy life, that makes it worth it. Kristi freeley admitted to enjoying her self, as did everone else. I don't think I will have to beg anyone to go to the dances anymore. Makes you wonder where we will all be next October 28th.

 

(I must note that the above thriller was not the last thriller, at the dance it was played, i danced, and now my poor feet are paying for it.)

Hum... what oh what shall i call this one......perhaps... SOCKS ARE TAKING OVER

Gosh darn it I put down for this font to be in Comic Sans, but it dosn't seem to be doing that does it... My socks don't match (they rarley do) *sigh* I own about 200 paris of socks and couldn't find a singel one  the smoring. Is this a problem for other people? Normel people? My left sock has a hole in it, its rubbing my poor toe agest my shoe... I should probably do a wash but I'm to lazy to. I could go into the many, many difficutlies in my life, but I'm to lazy to and I don't have any popcorn for the show. A small town is like a small stage, us teenagers and our drama provide the show, I rather see a movie if in fact i can't afford one. *sigh* Introsting things going on around town. Tomarow is the chior rendition of "Thriller" more like "MAKE IDIOTS OF YOUR SELF DAY" This dosn't really bother me consdiering i do it on a regular basis. People are mysteriously skipping school, caoughjonandkristicaough,  Haily is looking for Britney how do I know this you ask? Well Haily asked me if Brit was on, I said no she said DRAT, therefore my conclusion is Haily was looking for Brit. Sherlock Holmes said to form a conclusion before having all the data is foolish. Elvise said that wisemen say fools rush in. Did I confuse you with that last one? If i did go bang your head on the nearest wall and repet "I am a ediot" continue doing so until you relize the glory of the fat, druggy, king. *just for the record I really don't like Elvis that much* Now, i must potty, farewell. OH and Rachel if u read this STOP SAYING HOW BORING UR LIFE IS *its not much fun to read* oh and kriti if u r reading this i still havn't done my paragraphs

Slow internet, Nasty food, and other things thta bug the HELL out of me

Damn internet it took me like 3 mins to get to this darn page! SO you should really appraciate that I'm writing this (though i dont think anyone reads it other then Krisit)There is a great mysteroury lurking about conseringa certains persons (who shall not be named) dinner. I belive it to be a meat product of some sort... perhaps Chicken? No, the great heavens would not be so good to me. I fear the worst (lamp chop) just think of that cute, little, lamb! its enough to make you want to be a vegetarian (that is so not spelled right) I'm sitting in the shadows cuz i'm to lazy to turn on the light. Rather pathedic i know. I am however managing to egnor all my homework. Arn't your proud?

Where there is a will theres a way

The year is 1938 the midst of the Great Depression. Rosavelt job bergad is providing jobs, small they may be to thousands who would go hungery other wise. One of these jobs happens to be the Federal Theature. Providing Broadway jobs. The first play is one about the correopt goverment, blacks, whites, everyone. The actor/actroesses rehurses for months perfecting the performance. The night before the premier someone goes to the Universial Theature and does there best to make sure this play is never performed. They lock it from the inside and out. 20 milatary officals tried prevting the show. The federal goverment and police force banned the actors from proforming. This would have worked 9 our of 10 times if not for the brillent minds of the directors and the passion of the actors. Hunderds of crowd goers were marched 2 blocks away to another theature where would they would see the play. Now if the actors got on stage a preformed, they would loose there jobs, and if they lost there jobs, they lost everything. The director tells the pianoest to go on stage and play the score. Oh the actors will preform, but not on stage. The actors would say there lines from the seats in the audience, exersizing there freedome of speech. Wasn't there fault if they append to tell a story while doing so. The actors stood, rand around to various seats, jumped, and craweled. But they preformed. How they did it dosn't really matter. 

Fate as an odd way of getting even

     Well, well well. I get up early to go to a battle of the books meeting just to find out that it was canceld and nobody told me. So i'm kinda mad at Kristi who says she told me but she didn't and I get into spanish to find out Jons not there. Jons been missing a lot of school lateley and I'm a bit coureous on why. But I won't ask cuz i'm not going to prod. Its a half day and Vidhi and I are going to Western after school to film and interview and stuff like that. We leave in the middle of 8th period. We get there these two girls who talk an awefel lot showed us aroung (Vidhi was no help what so ever) My grandfather took her home. Her home happens to be near Wall-Mart and he askes me if it is okay if I acompey him on a trip to wallmart. I say sure, I'll do anything, though i don't really want to. When we go we usually just get pills and things. Today on the list is, Ensure (old people juice to make them hungery) Calicem, Air Freshener, and protecting pants (old people underwear so if they crap in there pants there okay) Wow that would be embarising if anyone saw u with them in ur cart. GUESS WHAT! i'm pusin the cart. Its okay, I"m bigger then getting embarrised over something so littte. So we get the pills a underwear and head over to the grocery section of the store to get air freshener. who do i see pass me on the other side of the desplay then Jon. Oh crap. This can't be good, he wasn't at school today I probably shouldn't know hes there. so i just act like everything is normal luckly he dosn't see me. We get to the detergent isal and guess what! Jons mom passes me. Where thers a mom Theres a Jon, this is not good. I finally figure out that my grandfater is lookin in the CHEER section for TIDE detergent so we get this. THe only thing next is air freshener. We find it, were home free, whats this? Hes gettin four? No... hes getting 12 yes my grandfather bought 12 things of air freshener. So here I am pushing a cart full of under pads, calicume, major air freshenher, and Ensure. Great. Were turing out of the isle now, its safe. "Hey Virginia!" could it be? i turn around to see Jon waving. "Hey" then i turn and go as fast as possible in the other direction wit hout lookin suspicious of corse. People who scip schoool don't usally say hi do they? "Was that the guy you walk out with sometimes"says Grandfather "Uh,, thats Jon, I don't think you know him" "He plays Basketball and walks out with you sometimes after school" "uh yeah" "Hes tall I'm glad he plays b-ball" (he thinks all tall people should play) This is a very strange mystery. One I'm not sure i should investagate.

 

 

Someone wrote a song about me and Kristi

BLAKE SHELTON LYRICS

Playboys Of The Southwestern World
(Neal Coty/Randy VanWarmer)

This is a song
About best friends

John Roy
Was a boy I knew
Since he was three
And I was two
Grew up two little houses
Down from me

The only two bad apples
On our family tree
Kind of ripened and rotted
In our puberty
Two kindred spirits bound by destiny

Well now I was smart Me
But I lacked ambition ME
Johnny was wild          Kristi
With no inhibition Krisi
Was about like mixin
Fire and gasoline
(And he'd say)

Hey Romeo
Let's go down to Mexico
Chase senoritas
Drink ourselves silly
Show them Mexican girls
A couple of real hillbillies
Got a pocket full of cash
And that old Ford truck
A fuzzy cat hangin
From the mirror for luck
Said don't you know
All those little
Brown-eyed girls
Want playboys of the southwestern world

Long around
Our eighteenth year
We found two plane tickets
The hell out of here                   both
Got scholarships
To some small town
School in Texas

Learned to drink Sangria
Til the dawns early light
Eat eggs Ranchero
And throw up all night
And tell those daddy's girls
We were majoring in a rodeo

Ah but my
Favorite memory
At school that fall
Was the night John Roy
Came runnin down the hall        Kristi
Wearin nothin
But cowboy boots
And a big sombrero
(And he was yellin)

Hey Romeo
Let's go down to Mexico
Chase senoritas
Drink ourselves silly
Show them Mexican girls
A couple of real hillbillies
Got a pocket full of cash
And that old Ford truck
A fuzzy cat hangin
From the mirror for luck
Said don't you know
All those little
Brown-eyed girls
Want playboys of the southwestern world

And I said
We had a little
Change in plans
Like when Paul McCartney
Got busted in Japan
And I said
We got waylaid
When we laid foot
On Mexican soil
See the boarder guard
With the Fu Manchu mustache
Kind of stumbled on John's
Pocket full of American cash
He said
Doin a little funny business
InMexico Amigo

But all I could think about
Was savin my own tail
When he mentioned ten years
In a Mexican jail
So I pointed to John Roy and said
It's all his now please let me go
Well it was your idea genius
I was just layin there in bed
When you said

Hey Romeo
Let's go down to Mexico
Chase senoritas
Drink ourselves silly
Show them Mexican girls
A couple of real hillbillies
Got a pocket full of cash
And that old Ford truck
A fuzzy cat hangin
From the mirror for luck
Said don't you know
All those little
Brown-eyed girls
Want playboys of the southwestern world

Ah we're still best friends     Our future
Temporary cell mates

Convo with Holly

HollyBratt64: hey toast 
softbalchick181: hey dork
HollyBratt64: uuuh not kool 
softbalchick181: whats uo\p
softbalchick181: up
softbalchick181: nether are drugs don't do them
softbalchick181: well now that my girl souct message of the day is over...
softbalchick181: i have no more meaning in life
HollyBratt64: not much u ?¿?
softbalchick181: what shall i devote my life 2?
softbalchick181: peanutbutter?
softbalchick181: perhaps
softbalchick181: doing thoes word surches on the back of the box?
HollyBratt64: no peanut butter is MINE 
softbalchick181: oh so many things
HollyBratt64: lol 
softbalchick181: sry bub but i've had that idea for a long time now
HollyBratt64: yur craxy  
HollyBratt64: crazy 
HollyBratt64: ** 
softbalchick181: why thanks u
softbalchick181: OLD PEOPLE STEEL THINGS!
softbalchick181: darn it where are they?
softbalchick181: i know there around here somewear...
HollyBratt64: wut im reely confused 
HollyBratt64: nvm  
HollyBratt64: new subject  
HollyBratt64: wut r u doing this  
HollyBratt64: weekend 
softbalchick181: well in about 10mins i'm goind to put on my happy face and attend my granparents 80th b day go to a long grulling church service tomarow moring try my very heardest not to fal asleep because we sit in the front row and if i have time I'll save the world, but i don't know if my secudel will allow that
HollyBratt64: lol' 
HollyBratt64:  busy  
softbalchick181: no
softbalchick181: crap
softbalchick181:  the old people are here
HollyBratt64: i get to drive to some place i dont even kno where watch my brother lose another foot alll
HollyBratt64: oooh kno wut shall we do  
HollyBratt64: ther here 
HollyBratt64: nooo 
HollyBratt64: there 
softbalchick181: oh my I fear the end is near
softbalchick181: I here them coming up the stairs
HollyBratt64: well its bin nice knowing 
HollyBratt64: u  
HollyBratt64: i shall miss u  
softbalchick181: NO
HollyBratt64: WHAT 
softbalchick181: i'm ont leaving tell someone comes up here and drags me out of this room
softbalchick181: Ill cry and scream and kick and...
softbalchick181: and u know what?
softbalchick181: I'm kinda hungery
HollyBratt64: what 
HollyBratt64: lol 
softbalchick181: maybe I'm being a bit to hasty about this
HollyBratt64: me to  
HollyBratt64: sur ethats a betta way 2 look at it 
softbalchick181: well
HollyBratt64: well 
softbalchick181:  Snyder does say i should give people more of a chance
softbalchick181: yet again... I don't trust P.E teachers
HollyBratt64: well if snyder said it 
HollyBratt64: lol 
HollyBratt64: thats true never trust that fit ones 
softbalchick181: crap
softbalchick181: thers a knocking at my door
HollyBratt64: ohh no r  
softbalchick181: i need a lock
HollyBratt64: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
softbalchick181: these people just don't get the point
HollyBratt64: lol 
softbalchick181: well my mother is telling me I must make an apperiance
HollyBratt64: ok then make yur apperience i shal wait 
softbalchick181: k bye
HollyBratt64: k good luk 
HollyBratt64:

convo and maddness

Kristi Jo 09: OMG! X-Men 2 was so good
softbalchick181: lol i know can u say SEQUAL?
softbalchick181: u wana know how it goes
softbalchick181: lol
Kristi Jo 09: Lol, well the directer on xmen 1.5 (Wich was gay cometo find out) said that this was the first time hes made a 2nd one
Kristi Jo 09: he usually only makes one
Kristi Jo 09: How what goes
softbalchick181: yes i know but there is room for a sequal
Kristi Jo 09: Oh yes
Kristi Jo 09: I know
softbalchick181: well the movies are direct copies of the comics so if u wana know what happens after jean dies then just read the comics
softbalchick181: okay i g2g plya mindless video games
Kristi Jo 09: Lol, well I cried when she dies
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: yeah
softbalchick181: its sad
Kristi Jo 09: I know
Kristi Jo 09: Lol
Kristi Jo 09: wait
softbalchick181: i have some really good fanfics about that
Kristi Jo 09: the best part was
softbalchick181: want one
Kristi Jo 09: . . . .
Kristi Jo 09: I UNDERSTOOD IT!!!!!!!!
softbalchick181: awesome
softbalchick181: im happy
Kristi Jo 09: Lol
Kristi Jo 09: me 2
Kristi Jo 09: Well I just got on to c if ne one was on but since ur leaving Im gonna go take a shower, but leave some fan fics and Ill check them out
softbalchick181: okay
softbalchick181: okay
softbalchick181: hold on
Kristi Jo 09: ok
Kristi Jo 09: I got like munerous cartoon dvds
softbalchick181: munersous?
Kristi Jo 09: numerous**
Kristi Jo 09: shut up
softbalchick181: lol what cartoons
Kristi Jo 09: at least I can spell squirrel
Kristi Jo 09: uhmm
Kristi Jo 09: Oh
Kristi Jo 09: wait
softbalchick181: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1569617/1/
Kristi Jo 09: their x-men
softbalchick181: theres a good one after jeens death
softbalchick181: cool
softbalchick181: the evolution or the old ones
Kristi Jo 09: Lol
softbalchick181: ?
softbalchick181: its takes place after jeans death
softbalchick181: i think....
Kristi Jo 09: Man I was Like "WHOA! " cause last time I went to the movie store i couldnt find ne. . .I dunno Evolution ithink curt and tabitha r in it
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: okay its the new ones then
softbalchick181: holy crap
Kristi Jo 09: Lol
Kristi Jo 09: wha?
softbalchick181: my mom called my aunt and my dad cuts his finger and i get a band aid and moms mad that were making so much noise and shes being a jerk and hes bleeding all over the place and hes cookin ribs and hes going nuts and shes angry and we don't have any band aids and hes all blody and shes screws ever fucin thing up
softbalchick181: thank u very much
softbalchick181: shes just pissed
softbalchick181: she needs to get over this
softbalchick181: hes still bleeding
Kristi Jo 09: aww
Kristi Jo 09: Im sorry
Kristi Jo 09: ur moms mad that ur making noise while shes on the fone?
softbalchick181: no its rather funny
Kristi Jo 09: Lol.
softbalchick181: i guess its just funny cuz we have been in this room for like 2 hrs and no one has said anything but when she calls we all start yelling
softbalchick181: i'm really glad u like the movie
Kristi Jo 09: Lol. . ..
Kristi Jo 09: sounds like my house
softbalchick181: i thinks it is funny okay i'm going to go in a min
Kristi Jo 09: okay
Kristi Jo 09: Lol

Superman to the end.

Christopher Reeves died a few days ageo, its really sad he was very nice and he never gave up. He was a wonderfull superman and was love by millions.

Strange, very strange convo with kristi

Kristi Jo 09: IM OUT TO DIVDE AND CONQuR

softbalchick181: lol

Kristi Jo 09: NO ONE SHALL REST UNTIL MY BINDER IS FOUND!!!!!!!!!!

softbalchick181: lol

softbalchick181: THE BINDERTHEIF!!!

softbalchick181: MUWAHAHA

 

Kristi Jo 09: nock the theiving stuff off

Kristi Jo 09: we already knoe it was a theif!!!!!!1

Kristi Jo 09: but whcih one

softbalchick181: ah

Kristi Jo 09: *Sci-Fi Music*

softbalchick181: sounds like a job for SHERLCOK HOLMES

softbalchick181: to bad hes not real... oh well guess ur out of luck

Kristi Jo 09: lol

Kristi Jo 09: DANG IT!!

 

 

 

softbalchick181: LOLLLLLLL MUWAHAHA *dont u have a binder to look for?

Kristi Jo 09: SHUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kristi Jo 09: lol u stupid shoe molester

softbalchick181: lol u asked me to tie it so i did *not my fault if i got a bit confused along the way*

Kristi Jo 09: i outa pyut u in jail

Kristi Jo 09: uh huh

Kristi Jo 09: thats sexual shoe harrasment

softbalchick181: nonsense, if anything I'm lucky i sruvived that

Kristi Jo 09: lol

Kristi Jo 09: u sarted it

Kristi Jo 09: ALL I wanted was my shoe tied

Kristi Jo 09: and what di u do? take adavantage of it when it was on the rebound

Kristi Jo 09: u outya be aSHAMED

softbalchick181: well... i think i did some real good

softbalchick181: JON MADE ME DO IT

softbalchick181: (woops

softbalchick181: uh i didn't just say that

Kristi Jo 09: DONT BRING INNOCENT JON INTO THIS!!!!!!!!!!

Kristi Jo 09: what if my shoe has a baby? huh? will you pay child sopport

softbalchick181: okay stop that now

softbalchick181: its gettin to weird

Kristi Jo 09: yeas

Kristi Jo 09: i knoe

Kristi Jo 09: i didnt knoe what else tosay

Kristi Jo 09: newhoo

Kristi Jo 09: ill c u in court

softbalchick181: no

softbalchick181: i told u jon made me do it

Kristi Jo 09: and i told u, donty bring innocent jon into this

softbalchick181: HE SAT THERE TELLING ME TO DO IT I HAD NO CHOICE!!!

Kristi Jo 09: uhmmm whatever hpppend to 'no. what r u gonna do if someone tells u to do drugs?]

softbalchick181: ask for a discount?

Kristi Jo 09: rofl

Kristi Jo 09: seriously

Kristi Jo 09: u coulda told him no

Cry

BUT I AM PROUD TO SAY I HAV'T CRIED, NOPE I"M TO GOING TO BE 1 KICK ASS ASSIANT DIRECTOR!

So this is what I did wrong (though i don't think I did)

softbalchick181: I'm sorry u didn't get a part in the play
Jesusmyrock09: naw its fine
Jesusmyrock09: i could care less
softbalchick181: really
softbalchick181: or r u just sayin that
Jesusmyrock09: i mean id be happy if i did get it, but im not that upset that i didnt
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: I am
Jesusmyrock09: did u not get a part?
Jesusmyrock09: i havent even looked at the list
softbalchick181: lol
softbalchick181: nope
softbalchick181: i didn't
Jesusmyrock09: aww im sry
Jesusmyrock09: u were great tho
softbalchick181: hey tell me what i did wrong u have to lie or go easy
softbalchick181: it would be a relief to know
Jesusmyrock09: okay dont get mad
Jesusmyrock09: i think you were great, but you didnt put a lot into what you read.....well not ass much as the people who did get it
softbalchick181: okay
softbalchick181: thanks
softbalchick181: do u think Chelsea Jones put a lot into it
Jesusmyrock09: ummm....sorta
softbalchick181: k
Jesusmyrock09: wait is she ova thur
softbalchick181: lol no
softbalchick181: I"m kinda mad at her
Jesusmyrock09: why
softbalchick181: she got a part i don't think she deserved
Jesusmyrock09: oh
Jesusmyrock09: you have to look at it as, Mrs. Reynolds made her decision, it may be best for the drama club
softbalchick181: k
softbalchick181: *i don't think it was*
softbalchick181: sry
softbalchick181: i'm still a little mad
softbalchick181: ill get over it eventually
Jesusmyrock09: naw its fine

LIFE HAS GONE TO FREEKIN HELL

Well, being me, my feeeling s are wrong no matter what. I was so sure I'd get a part in the play i started acting all cokey about it I get to school to find out I didn't get one. Now Racel was very helpfull and said that i didn't put as much into it as others did. Now I have this thing about over acting. SO i try really hard not to do it I think that was my problem I am so freeken pissed it is not even funny. I am Trapped. I'm all happy when school gets out, then i have to get into the car where Grandfather talks about his fights with grandmother, his not understanding why shes dieing, every little fuckin deatail about the day and the problems, (mostly the problems) TODAY for instece, I don't make the play, everyone else does, I am very embarrissed about this, it kills my self image, I'm jealouse of everyone, Joey is totley changed, says it him self that he has matured, i think it just means hes lost his innocence, making him a more tired, responsible, grumpy, Joey, not the vanella ice i know. Kristi and Kacy don't get it, I know they are full of sympthoy, but not empothy, they don't know what it is like for all of there friends, close friends, to get a part, and to be totley left out, I mad a fool of  my self. The day goes by and before you know it I'm in the car with Grandfather, whos first words are "I had a fight with Grandmother today, and i feel really bad" all i want to do is go home hate the world and sleep but i have to play Dr. Phill for 10mins. He talks about how he can't understand anything anymore, how its just that stage in the game and about her bowls. Now for the life of me i can't figure out why he thinks i need to know about her bowls but he tells me. I have heard some of the grooses things, he tells me the same thing every day over and over and over again, I ALLREADY KNOW THIS STUFF for christs sake i don't care if u gave away ur lawn cart today or what u did. But i Hear it, I would much rather take the buss home and get away from all of this. He then talks about Ben, Ben had recently taken the Bar Exam in Whyoming, Ben passed, Bens girl friend is allso a lawyer, a good one, better then Ben, Today Ben found out he didn't pass the Colorado Bar, his girlfriend did. Sound familure? So then i have to tell grandfather how unfair it is that Ben didn't pass and all this shit when in side I'm thinking STOP TALKING I JUST WANT U TO STOP TALKING. It accures to me that Ben is the only one who understands whatI'm feeling, but i can't talk to Ben now can I? Nope sure can't. Grandfather goes back to the fact that Aunt Lenor invited her eslf to lunch and He had to Un-invite her because grandmother dosn't like her and he didn't want to make things worse. She is mad cuz she isn't going to this wedding He is going to and she dos't understand why. Guess who is going? Mom. I have 5 things tomarow that involve her, she can't go, no she'll be with grandfather, who keeps bringing up how nice it is of her to go with him. Never does he relize that I have things going on tomarow that may involve her. Well he dosn't need to worry, they don't anymore. I can't stop going home with him or spending this long, awakward scilecne fill time with him, though it is slowley killing me. He waits all day to pick me up and poor his emotions out. I can't keep going from happy to sad or Depressed to Depressed sad. But i have to, if i stop, he stops. Life has gone to hell.

Strangers, Drama, Math Homework

WEll well well Today i was supposed to ride home wit Kristi but that didn't work out. SO I was going to walk home. Now after school walking home isn't so bad but at 4 o clock when everyone is getting home it is. I was coming home from drama were i was way to over confident, and i was at the lincion crossing when a girl i don't know in a van pulled up and asked me if i was at the drama thing. I said yes and continued to look for a space to cross, Then she asked me if i needed a ride! I was so thankfull and said yes, wich is rather dumb but oh well i got a ride home! I hope I get a part I am so happy for Kristi and Kacy (I need somefriends with names that don't start with K) I feel bad that Joey won't talk to me anymore Jimi is a much better actor then I ever knew.

Avoiding Scraptbook

Man I don't know how Kristi can get up so early, I have to go eat with my g-pa today and I am really not looking foward to it. I'm sure I'll have lots to tell later, I need to do the student council scrapt book but i am avoiding it. okeydokie byebye