Christmas Eve

I saw Grandmother today in the nursing home. I really do think shes better off there, its just weird. I sat in the room while she laied on top of the bed, the comforter was covered in carnations, or tulips, I don't know I've never been good with flowers. The sun was so bright you didn't need to turn any lights on. The place smelled surpriseingly good. I thought nursing homes were supposed to be groose but from what I saw of this place they were great.

Sure the smell was way to strong and you could tell it had come out of about 12air freshiner cans to cover some less pleasent smells, but it was nice. The room wasn't very big but its not like she can move around it. I made a joke and told her she was the center of activity, this is becasue shes next to the physical theropy room and accross from the dinning hall. She has a view of the cortyard and she said about 40times how much she enjoyed watching the snow. I just feel bad for grandfather tonight, going to bed by himself knowing he left his wife somewear else on Christmas.

Its also kinda neat to think about the people working there. I mean they have to stay there over Christmas to right? So tonight I shall think about the people sacraficing any chance at fun to be with my grandmother who dosn't even know its Christmas.

Grandfather has become extremly emotional. Also rather obsessive, but who can blame him? So we try to look past the fact he crys sometimes when he talks, or that everyonce and awhile he spaces out. Thats when you know he's remembering something, you also know that cry time isn't far behind.

So thats my sad little bit, actually I was going to write this little depressing story I thought of...but that wouldn't do on Christmas would it? I thought not. Dad has it out for Christmas specials so we went to the video store and got just about everything that dosn't involve raindeer, Santa, Christmas, or snow. Surprisingly enough we managed to get 4. I will not list them in fear of boring you but Kristi, we got the Termenal.

I remember what I was doing last year on Christmas Eve. Mom had FINALLY come home from the hospital, Grandfather was still staying with Grandmother, I think I may of been sick... but I remember I was on the internet, talking to some girl from Flordia on WhyVille. I also played with the NORDAR tracks Santa thing. Yeah I know I'm a bit old for Santa but its so much fun to get back in to believing.

Thats pretty much it. I hope you all have a holly jolly Christmas, Oh and Derek, I don't want to embarris you but I'm going ot anyway. What you said was really sweat.