Leaving

This will most likly be the last time I post in 4days seeing as I'm being forced to go on a FAMILY VACATION, and I'm scared out of my flippin mind.

You really shouldn't  be afraid of a family vacation. I'm sure its rather unhealthy, but quite frankly, it's probably the LAST thing I would EVER want to do. I love my family, I just can't stand them. And I know that sounds horrible, but I know with out a doubt that I'm going to be in hell for 4 days with my least favorite people on Earth. Thats not fair to them.

They're not bad people to know, I'm sure they are even quite pleasent, but when they drag me away from everything I love about days off from school, I'm not going to be to cheerful. This added to the fact that we argue constantly, I have no respect for my mom or my dad, my grandfather is an awesome person but gets on everyones everlovin nerves, things are bound to happen.

Most of the people who read this have siblings and though they might not get along with them in the least bit, theres still someone around your age there. However in my family its just me. Me and my parents who are older then most my friends grandparents. What do you think we could actually do to have fun as a family? Nothing. Absolutly nothing. They do make attempts to do fun things for teens, but dang its just not possible. In all honosty, I rather be bored in the car while they go to some Museume or something.

Better yet, they could just leave me here.

But nope, they decided I must be tourtured more. Usually, *Meaning every night* after a fight, I just live in my room, and talk. Now I have no where to go, no one to talk to, and I'm dependent on them. I hate being dependent on people who can't stand to be around.

And I know it makes no sense on here, but I just can't handel them. When I'm around them I'd do ANYTHING to get away. I'm so misroable. I think horrible things and I go manic depressive. But I've always found safty in my room, away from them.

I can't get away.

So your probably all reading this thinking "God! If going on a vacation was the only problem I had I'd be so happy!" And you'd be absolutly right. I'm being a selfish jerk here and I can't stop it. Try not to completly judge me on this one little entry eh?

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Okey doky, in other news, this stupid hell hole of a trip will be good for SOMETHING. Maybe....

I'm going to sleep! Maybe....

I don't know why, but I barly have slept in the past 4 days. Now mind you, during the week I usually don't actually get sleep, but I thought I was used to going to bed at 12:30 and getting up at 6. I guess I wasn't. Its really kinda funny becuase I hadn't relized that no one else knew about never sleeping. I thought I told people....

Guess not. Anyhoos, I don't know if it was stress, or anger, or depression, but I've gotten a total of 7hrs of sleep! *Shhhhhhh Don't tell, I was supposed to go to bed at 11, thanks to SOMEONE!* Only 11 turned into 12, and 12 turned into 12:30 and then I found a magizeen....

The next day I fell over in Spanish. Only Joey saw, he laughed. Twas rather funny.

And today, I couldn't stop yawning. I came the closest I've ever come to sleeping in class during Science. I didn't. I'm thinking thats a good thing.

Though I don't really miss sleeping, always kind of scared me to be honost. To actually be totally unaware of the world for that long just dosn't seem right.

Well, I'm sure I'll rant more later.

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Thing of the day!

softbalchick181 : And I'm not asking Mom.

Jon : ... Why?

softbalchick181 : Tis a long and pathetic story.

Jon : I've got time

softbalchick181 : It involves chipmunks.

softbalchick181 : Well...no it dosn't, but it'd be awesome if it did.